Sorry, this is probably going to turn into some kind of rant, but I've been having this feeling build up in the past few years and now it's reached the point where I have to ask.
I've been finding my "relationship" with Deviantart harder and harder to maintain. I'm not stupid or self-content enough to think that I'm amazing at what I do, but 3 years or so ago I used to be able to get about 10 favs per deviation and far more traffic to each post. Now, I can barely get one fav per post and the average views seem to run around 20, which, honestly, is depressing when I think I've gathered 300 viewers. It's really hard when you reach a point where you produce something, think "wow I've really come ways with this one, I feel like I've grown quite a bit as an artist" and then receiving less praise for it then I used to get 3 years ago and with that less experience. Heck, it's not even a question of praise anymore, it's a question of visibility. People don't even bother to CHECK it anymore.
I don't know...
Am I doing something wrong? In all humility I'm asking for the answer because I feel like I probably am but again I can't seem to wrap my mind around what it is exactly. Is it because I haven't been too active in the past years? Giving less frequent posts? Is it just my work that's not that interesting?
I feel like I've reached the point where I should do like my friends from college and up and leave DA for good. At the same time I can't bring myself to do it just yet, but god, this is getting so hard on me for no reason, really. I hate that posting on this website has become a downer. I used to get super happy at managing even just 10 favs. I knew it wasn't much but I felt like I was growing and like the community was acknowledging it. It helped me move forwards.
Now it's like I have become shit. Like my talent has wasted over time and now I'm close to being worthless in the eyes of the world. I know it's stupid, I realize that's not true, but again this is something I can't help but feel deep down.
So what is it? What am I not doing right? I don't want cuddling I just want an honest answer. What should I be working on improving? What do you expect of me? What are my flaws? What are my strong points, what should I be building upon? You can't imagine how grateful I would be if I get even just one answer to this journal. I probably sound pitiful but it would mean the world to me.